I remember the conversation. I hadn’t planned on having it and I did not fully understand my thoughts and goals, but I knew it needed to come out. “I don’t think I want to go back to school.”
When I began, the words spilled out. I explained how on-edge, irritable, and depressed I constantly felt. I worried about my safety and future. How could I enjoy life and take care of myself if my future career is taking 110% of my energy?
Tyler was immediately supportive. He suggested alternative careers and options for me.
That wasn’t what I wanted either. I realized it wasn’t about a specific career, I was taking on too much. I just needed a job.
I don’t think I processed my thoughts before having this conversation, but I don’t think it mattered. When I said what I needed to say, a weight was lifted off of me.
Life is all about having these difficult conversations. Putting yourself and your thoughts out there, being vulnerable, it’s awfully uncomfortable. Although, these moments and those conversations are periods of growth and development.
When we push our feelings down and don’t have the difficult conversations, we become stuck. In situations, jobs, relationships, and life.
We owe it to ourselves and our happiness to have difficult conversations. I know from experience how uncomfortable being stuck feels.