Asking for help has become a norm for me. That’s a good thing. When I’m unable to do something myself or when I need support, I reach out for help. I much more comfortable with it now, and I don’t feel like a burden as often.
Even though this is a good thing, it has also made it easy for me to be dependent in ways. This, mixed with my struggle to leave my house alone, means I do a lot less independently than I once had.
I want to grow my independence and set goals for myself.
I’m starting this by spending the weekend alone. In the past, this has sent me into crisis. Since then, I’ve learned to cope and tolerate my emotions and distress. Now, I want more. I want to be able to enjoy my time alone and thrive.
I’m going to leave my house more. Maybe I get myself coffee or plants as a reward for my accomplishment. I will likely go thrifting for my reselling business. And I will continue to drive myself to my occasional babysitting job.
These may seem like small goals, but for me, they’re a big deal, a huge deal. I need to remind myself of this and validate my successes.
I’m growing my independence because it’s beneficial for my health, my confidence, my relationships, and my growth. It will be difficult, but I have the strength and skills to accomplish my goals.